Terezin and Auschwitz are two experiences that I
will never forget and two places in which the events that took place will not
be understood by simply studying them.
Even visiting and walking the same grounds were the Holocaust occurred
will not be enough to comprehend it and to assimilate it. One cannot even imagine what the people that
suffered and survived these concentration camps felt in flesh. From my own experience, being there was not
enough.
Going to Terezin I expected a much bigger concentration
camp, but I was surprised by its small terrain.
I can’t imagine the conditions in which people suffered from the
overcrowding. Walking in the camp and
going from room to room I tried to imagine the people that went through
there. Even in my mind there was still
space, not even then I could picture so many people as 600 in a barrack. One room that stands out in my memory is the
shower room. I felt anxious there, maybe
because a gas chamber came into my mind.
The atmosphere in this room was different than in all the others. It was sort of more personal, something that
I can’t really describe. The other room
that I will not forget was the punishment cell, where the only light and air
came through a little square hole in the wall.
Up to 60 people were there at one time.
It must have been unbearable, worse than anything I have ever felt or
been through in my life. It is crazy how
the Nazi tortured and took away everything from their victims. They did not even have their dignity or a
sense of self. The cemetery is a great
tribute to those who died after liberation and those who were buried in the
mass grave. I did not know that the rocks
over the tomb stones meant prayers that visitors left. Now I understand why there were so many in
almost every tomb stone in the cemetery.
Visiting Terezin before Auschwitz was good because it prepared the grown
for what we could seen in the actual extermination camp.
Auschwitz was hard to take in. It was a fast tour and on some parts of it I
wanted to just pay more attention to the detail, to trying to understand what
the entrance gate meant, what every room we walked through was used for and
realizing that the things exhibited there belonged to someone. That every shoe had been worn, the hair had
been combed and braided, the clothes had been worn by babies, and that the many
objects had been used by human beings that were treated worse than animals by
other human beings. It is hard for me to
understand how a person could have done that to so many people without remorse
and guilt. They had no conscience
whatsoever.
Birkenau was the most impressive to me. When I watched Schildler’s List, the part
where the train of women get taken to Auschwitz and there train arrives and
passes through the main gate gave me chills and a weird feeling in the bottom
of my stomach. In that moment, I really
did not want to go there. When we went
and we were right next to the rail tracks, I remembered the movie and the
images of ran through my mind. I did not
know what to think, what to say. There
was nothing to say. I was there,
standing in the same spot as many other people back then. The experiences are for from comparable.
Walking the strip were millions of others took the last steps of their life was
very emotional. I wanted to pay my
respects towards all the victims died there, and for a moment I wanted to say a
silent prayer but then I did not know if it would be appropriate. I do pray for the rest of their souls and
they will not be forgotten.
This experience did strengthen my understanding of
the Holocaust. I must say that some
things I will not look at the same way after this. One of them is a chimney. As we were leaving the site, I could see
houses with black, and sometimes white, smoke coming out of the chimney and I
could not stop myself from thinking about the chimneys in the crematoria. Many things will not be the same after
studying the Holocaust. There is still
so much that I would like to study about it.
I would like to hear a live testimony of a survivor. I feel that it would help me understand it
further and more genuinely.
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